Although my family might disagree at times, I feel like I take most things in stride but since I've started meditating regularly, a peaceful calm has come over me. Meditation gives me the opportunity to take more control over my health and overall disposition quickly becoming as important a part of my lifestyle as diet, exercise and sleep. Even with all the daily stressors including planning my daughter's upcoming wedding, I have been eerily calm and focused this last week thanks in large part to meditating regularly. It's especially difficult to stay "present in this moment" when I'm thinking about an event that is happening in the future but staying aware of the here and now and knowing that's all I can control, is making a huge difference in my attitude. The added benefit of this new mindset for me has been staying emotionally unattached to my body's limitations by believing in the "infinite field of potentials to draw in a new reality." I realize that this might sound like so much voodoo which is exactly what I thought before I started getting into it. My last blog post has the meditation I've been doing almost daily but there are many others available on YouTube so I urge you to give it a try. One of the questions posed in the one I listen to is to think about an assertion you tell yourself over and over (mine is my chronic back pain) with the narrator asking, "Does it serve you to hold onto this belief?" Well for me the answer is a big, fat No and much to my amazement, my back has been feeling much better for which I am beyond thankful.
I didn't think meditation was for me because I could never get my "monkey mind" to stop bouncing around for even five minutes. I guess like anything else it takes practice, patience and the time to really tune into your inner self. I tried a meditation by Dr. Joe Dispenza yesterday morning before I started my daily routine. This particular meditation is almost 40 minutes long so I only got through the first 30 minutes before I was interrupted but really felt the benefits all day long. I woke up with bad back pain as usual so I focused my intention on being pain free and energetic and like magic, I felt great all day. I have to admit that it took me a good 10 to 15 minutes to really get into the meditation zone because my to -do list kept popping into my head but every time that happened, I acknowledged it and refocused on the words being spoken. By 20 minutes into the meditation I felt like my head was floating separate from my body. I still can't believe that I had such a sense of well-being all day long and can't wait to try meditating again. I'm also reading the book by Dr. Joe Dispenza called Becoming Supernatural which points out the importance of living in the present. "The moment you wake up in the morning and search for the familiar called you, you are starting your day in the past." I'm not suggesting that our ailments are in our head but it's human nature to pull from our memory to assess how our pain feels in our body and then duplicate that memory thus feeling those familiar aches in the same way as we remember them feeling. We've become "addicted" to the emotions associated with our illness. Dr. Dispenza states that we can create a different reality by "thinking greater than the way we feel at the present." If yesterday's meditation results were any indication of my power to change my present reality then I'm all in.
There's an old Mamas and Papas song called "Rainy Days and Mondays always get me Down" and although it's a rainy Monday, I'm not sad about it. I realize that most people dread Mondays because it's typically the start of their work week. Even though I don't work outside the home anymore, Mondays are usually the day that I get organized for the week ahead by making doctor appointments, following up on emails and managing our household finances. I find that lists help me to stay organized so ticking off my to dos gives me such a sense of accomplishment. When I was working full time in retail management before my diagnosis, I couldn't imagine a time when such mundane activities would be enough to keep me occupied but I've come to appreciate a slower pace of life these days. Regardless of what day of the week it is, I find that a positive and grateful attitude is crucial for my overall well -being.
Everyone who knows me also knows that if asked how I am, I’m going to say “Fine" every time. I’m not sure why this is always my go to response when inquiring minds want to know but it’s become a habit by this point. Sometimes I wonder if I’m trying to convince myself or the person asking but this knee- jerk reply isn’t likely to change anytime soon. It’s the same principle as when we greet someone and ask “How are you?” 99% of the time the answer is ‘good” which if we’re being honest with ourselves, is all we really want to hear. We all have our own problems and struggles to deal with on a daily basis so just because my issues might be more visible doesn’t make them any more difficult to deal with than yours. Like they say, if we all threw our problems into a pile and saw everyone else’s there, we’d still take our own back every time.
We get frustrated with our now adult children sometimes because they can seem unappreciative, dare I say entitled at times to the best life has to offer but why not? Haven't we spent our entire marriage making sure our kids had everything we didn't and even more? How can we blame them for expecting to always be well taken care of when that was exactly our goal as their parents? Like most people our age, my husband and I had a much different upbringing. We're both 1 of four children in our respective families and everyday was a battle for the one bathroom, the one house phone, or the one, last helping of casserole or whatever our mom put on the table. As children we always had to share everything so we grew up knowing how to do that. We should be pleased that our kids had a totally different experience than we did and hopeful that they too raise entitled, confident children equipped to handle an ever-changing world.
It's always best to have a short memory especially when you have an unpredictable illness. It’s also very helpful to stay as positive as possible because as bad as I may feel today, tomorrow’s bound to be better and fortunately that’s the case most of the time. Please don’t get me wrong as there are plenty of days where I don’t feel like doing much of anything but thankfully my life stays busy enough that I don’t have time to wallow in it, you know places to go and people to see. Short-term memory loss also helps me stay upbeat because I forget about the times I felt rotten almost immediately. The lesson here is simple.. forgive, forget and forge on because tomorrow is another opportunity to feel better than I do today..
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